Distracted

I have such an uneasy feeling right now…I am here, there and everywhere…and I want to do everything at the same time…grab every opportunity, hold on to every thread, turn every page, try everything new…just, you know, do magic or something…!

Maybe I am trying too hard to change my life…but it seems like changing your life is harder than making it…and that so should not be the case…

I need to breathe and focus...

Contrast

Addiction

It's funny how perceptions differ...you might think the world of one person but he might be the symbol of absolute foolhardiness to someone else...which again, brings up a question that often baffles and teases me - do we like (or dislike) others for who they are or for how they make us feel?

Isn't it just the easiest thing to find signs of insecurity or pretension in others simply because, by default, it highlights our depth of character? Or conversely, don't we often like or keep ourselves surrounded by people who in some way or the other flatter us? I know I do...I mean, yeah, I do appreciate traits in others, especially certain values that are common with me...but would it be easy or even possible for me to feel the same if he or she exposed some weakness of mine...?

Like all 'social animals' I am an addict of praise too...maybe not in the most explicit of its forms but I am...I like to feel good about myself...in many subtle (and sometimes not-so-subtle) forms I am seeking it all the time...I am hungry for it...and if I can't find anyone else who sees the greatness is me, in my mind and perception I demean them because that automatically elevates me...I also realize that all this is fine except that I don't know the way out...it's a vicious circle...really, how am I supposed to not care about things or people if I so depend on them for my own perception of who I am?

So, I am trying to find a way out...not to leave right now but who knows, hopefully someday...

Showtime

Yesterday I promised myself that i'll be all cool and matter-of-factly about this...but I can't! Yes, after much begging, pleading, blackmailing, maska-maroaing and every other cheap trick in the book, I managed to get 4 passes for Harry Potter movie premier yesterday!! So, today when the movie is actually releasing, I can be and am being all smug and declaring that I have seen it...it's worth it...and I am ecstatic!!

The movie started off rather slowly...and it took a while for the much darker mood of this installment to sink in (actually, that could also be because of all my over-excitement and the drive to the theater in which I nearly smashed a few cars)...but boy, did the movie catch pace post interval! It was engrossing, pacy, visually stunning...but I really don't want to do a movie review here...am just excited and now even more eager for book 7...!

Yipppieeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!